and so i survived another day. physically im surrounded by people but mentally im still standing alone. i think i pretty much got used to the mental pain alr. torture by the satan in my mind, i ave in. letting him take over my entire mind. i thank him for numbing my mind, taking away my emotions. making me less human. the way i should have been from the start.

if you ask me if ive regretted changing. i do somehow in some way. i like the old me. the one without anything to worry. no feelings. no emotions. i feel safer that way. keeping myself inside not letting anyone else in. the way i really am. guess now im back.

the holidays are near. im thinking of a destination. genting? tioman? port dickson? malacca? fishing trip at kelong? auzzie? i dont know man. just feel like leaving singapore for awhile. need to recharge myself before sem2 starts..

speaking of which, i cant imagine sem2. but at the very least i havent start whinning about it yet. which is a good thing.