here i sat alone soaking myself in misery. nothing will be ever the same again. no matter how muchwe try to change things. what done is done. now we can just pray for school to end. and hopefully life will go back to normal.

i know for the past few post ive been ranting and ranting on my life. being a goddamn bitch and all. i cant help it okay! im only human. i wna lock myself up in my room and cry my sorrows away. im controlling my temper very well alr, dont push it further. theres a limit to everything. for me, its just that inch bit lesser.

i miss you alr. i really do. the crazy times that we share. i hate to admit it but i do misses the times you annoys the hell outta me. i miss checking my phone and find out its not you. missing the time when we have cig breaks together. drinking in sch. all the thiny bit of things that we do. time passes damn slow without you in my life. i know im to blame for the state that we are in now. all that i ask for now is for things to go back to normal. but it seems like impossible now, the damage is done. a irreversible change.

thanking you. for all the things that youve done. all the theory that you attempt to drill into my brain even tthough i always look on the dark side. for letting me see that im not the onyl one going through shits in life. for pulling me out when im sinking too deep. for being there when i need someone to whine to. for being there when every part of me is falling. really thank you.

and the ones who are still there for me.